I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in a lengthy while, I don’t feel alone.
Element of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I will be doing this for the incorrect reason; as an easy way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have allow you to see inside a course in miracles. Don’t are interested troubling your brain, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I really could not think of something that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere having its residents’satisfaction, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief will be (has been?) released.
There are other items that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.